my thoughts...
there are a couple things rolling around my brain tonight...
have you ever had someone say something to you that hits right to the core of your being - your heart - not hurtful - not encouraging - just a fact. a statement that rings perfectly true. maybe it has crossed your mind before but has never really hit true until this moment. well that happened to me last night... one of my dear friends and i were talking and something she said struck home. i've been thinking about it a lot - since... and am reminded of how much i love it here in tacoma and it's exactly where i am supposed to be.
second... weird stuff happening... first off, i feel like i have a swollen gland - right up under my jaw bone (toward the middle...) and also feel a little leakage down my throat... well, on my way to church my lip started feeling a little numb... and then seemingly throughout church - it moved through my face and my ear and my neck started feeling really stiff and the same numbness kind of crept around back there and down my back. well, i talked to a dear nurse friend and she said it sounded like most of it was spiritual but also my body seems to be fighting off an infection... well, i got some prayer and the two things surrounding this whole "not feeling well" were anxiety - and a roadblock. physical anxiety - just running around in chaos - and being anxious about specific situations in my life as well as spiritual anxiety... the Lord showing - this is what i'm going to do in your life - and to me it seems like, "i gotta get through them NOW, i gotta have them done in this way..." and just relinquishing any control and rights that i have taken to limit and confine the Lord's timing and work in my life... secondly that this sickness, both literal and figuratively - is a blockage - to the plan that the Lord has called for me... so just breaking off that blockage and saying no. anyway, after prayer, the numbness isn't so much - but i still feel pretty tired, weak and in physical pain... crazy stuff, huh...
anyway, you can pray for me - that all anxiety would be bound. that peace would abound. that i would have patience while the Lord strengthens my faith and trust in him. and that i might physically rest and find peace. *yawn* (that's a good sign - that yawn felt GOOOOD)
alright... i'm going to bed now...
you were chosen. your road is secure. he is pleading for you. there is NO condemnation. nothing can separate you from his love. you can't perform. it's nothing you do - perfectionism and performance must be ripped off! he has gone before you. the Lord wants to be with you forever.
that's the sermon tonight in a nutshell. i had the realization again this evening... i get to go to NEWSONG!! EVERY WEEK. what a blessing. how could i forget?
BGIRL.
have you ever had someone say something to you that hits right to the core of your being - your heart - not hurtful - not encouraging - just a fact. a statement that rings perfectly true. maybe it has crossed your mind before but has never really hit true until this moment. well that happened to me last night... one of my dear friends and i were talking and something she said struck home. i've been thinking about it a lot - since... and am reminded of how much i love it here in tacoma and it's exactly where i am supposed to be.
second... weird stuff happening... first off, i feel like i have a swollen gland - right up under my jaw bone (toward the middle...) and also feel a little leakage down my throat... well, on my way to church my lip started feeling a little numb... and then seemingly throughout church - it moved through my face and my ear and my neck started feeling really stiff and the same numbness kind of crept around back there and down my back. well, i talked to a dear nurse friend and she said it sounded like most of it was spiritual but also my body seems to be fighting off an infection... well, i got some prayer and the two things surrounding this whole "not feeling well" were anxiety - and a roadblock. physical anxiety - just running around in chaos - and being anxious about specific situations in my life as well as spiritual anxiety... the Lord showing - this is what i'm going to do in your life - and to me it seems like, "i gotta get through them NOW, i gotta have them done in this way..." and just relinquishing any control and rights that i have taken to limit and confine the Lord's timing and work in my life... secondly that this sickness, both literal and figuratively - is a blockage - to the plan that the Lord has called for me... so just breaking off that blockage and saying no. anyway, after prayer, the numbness isn't so much - but i still feel pretty tired, weak and in physical pain... crazy stuff, huh...
anyway, you can pray for me - that all anxiety would be bound. that peace would abound. that i would have patience while the Lord strengthens my faith and trust in him. and that i might physically rest and find peace. *yawn* (that's a good sign - that yawn felt GOOOOD)
alright... i'm going to bed now...
you were chosen. your road is secure. he is pleading for you. there is NO condemnation. nothing can separate you from his love. you can't perform. it's nothing you do - perfectionism and performance must be ripped off! he has gone before you. the Lord wants to be with you forever.
that's the sermon tonight in a nutshell. i had the realization again this evening... i get to go to NEWSONG!! EVERY WEEK. what a blessing. how could i forget?
BGIRL.
posted by bleev | 8:53 PM
1 Comments:
Bunz *hugs*
just wanted you to know i'm prayin for you! I hope you can sleep well and wake up tomorrow feeling refreshed and, good and just at peace.I'm sorry that i missed you online tonight! I have been thinknig about you so much! I'll call you tomorrow! I hope you got my messages this weekend, i was in and out of having reception on my phone.
I love you so much!
Jodi
And thanks for your blog, so good to come home tonight and read it, and catch up, and just be blessed ! Thanks for sharing and bein you, so beatifuly who God made you to be! You are a light my friend!
OH and i am so excited about the Punky Brewster song :)I use to have shoes just like hers and this vest and all this stuff and i wore it one halloween *L* good memories i loved that show! The cartoon never did it justice though! Thanks for makin me smile! :)
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